Behind my flooded eyes-
Reality secretly drowns
At the deep end of my heart's tide-
I break down without a sound
Smiles are simple masks-
Strength is an excuse
Weakness is a perfect act-
Scars are permanent proof
I portray a solid statue-
But my insides are ruined
I would only end up worrying you-
If you witnessed my tears blooming
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I couldn't reach for your hands
Your love was always a depleting solution
There is no future with you while I live in the past
Your forgiveness never stood a chance against my self-discrimination
Old wounds consumed / Memories of you
Dreams became immune / Fears remained true
I had to let go of your essence
Reflecting Illusions by SurvivingNights, literature
Literature
Reflecting Illusions
Convincing skies reflect my dreams
Translucent mirrors mimic my visions
Revealing only what I want to see
Erasing runaway thoughts of opposition
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In this perfect world of mine-
I am in complete control
There are no illusions of wrong or right-
For the filter to reality is my own
Stereotypes are nonexistent
Thus, there is no swift judgment
And there are no moments of hatred or resentment
There is no shame! / There is no pride!
There is no pain! / There are no lies!
Serenity is the number one priority
Hearts have full immunity to adversity
And tears have yet to be given an opportunity
A home where promises aren't broken-
And people aren
The Maze
Divide reality from illusion
Forwards is backwards
Separate belief from redemption
Success is failure
Where shadow crosses light
The ground meets my face
I'm surrounded by lies
The truth is too far away
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Hope is this-
...Virus
Faith is this-
Injustice...
Pain is this-
...Shameless
It's just another dead end / It's filled with emptiness
This is death's discontent / Resenting life's rhetorical existence
Fear is this-
...Shapeless
Chaos is this-
Feverish...
Peace is this-
...Blinded
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An infinite cycle mocks
Turn after turn
The timelessness cannot stop
As the same path is reborn
An unstable prisoner drowns
Lost inside my own e
Inner Demons
Silently peaceful
Praying for the prey
A saint so blissful
Don't let the old scars awake
Chaotically graceful
A storm of rage comes my way
Idle hands yearn to be unfaithful
Even the heavens won't feel safe
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I am my greatest fear
I am my own worst enemy
The glares I give myself are fierce
I barely hold onto this false harmony
My twisted thoughts flicker / The acts of a sinner
The silence of a confessor / A secret held forever
The madness took over / Becoming hell's harbinger
I am the lawless; I am executioner / This is my will; this is my terror
I hated my own reflection
Knowing the truth behind the lie
I destroyed my o
My Darkest Hour
I've become lost
In my sundered reflection
I've finally crossed
The line of desperation
I sense something sinister
Something that is beyond cruel
My tears seem to hinder
Ready to break down soon
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The darkness is always waiting
To rule / To conquer
To swallow / To devour
To return / To overpower
The shadows are always lurking
As I cry / As I weep
As I beg / As I plead
As I fall / As I grieve
The blinding fear is consuming
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My anxiety-infected veins pour
I'm beyond weak
I don't want to be afraid anymore
Let me bleed
This is the only way out
A perfect exit for a coward
No longer am I bound
I couldn't survive my dark
Shade Of Blue
From a deep slumber...
I have awoken
To this cruel color...
That leaves me haunted
My eyes scream
As I opened the door to my soul
Those thoughts of you start to bleed
Reminding me that you're just a person I used to know
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A dark ocean blue that I once knew
Leaked through my window
It matched this mood
Amplifying the sorrow
Sparking negative energy
It's the secret source of my core
The only element allowing me-
To survive another day, once more
Without a care
I can endure
Without a prayer
I push forward
So let this hue shower
With extreme hatred
Force the nostalgia to devour
And let my heart remain powerless
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Wishing I was
The Unwanted Dove
My transformation could not be stopped
A weakened heart is to blame
Remnants of tears are left
I will never be the same again
So tired of everything / These memories of suffering
This is my dark reincarnation / Oh thou have forsaken
I am not your messenger anymore
I'm blind from keeping faith
I no longer recognize a savior
There's no more numbing the pain away
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Lock me up
Destroy the key
I'm not strong enough
To ever be free
So please clip my wings tonight / Never again will I take flight
Allow me to be useless / I yearn to be powerless
It won't be wrong
To take another shot at me
I am done
So cage away this false
Behind Hollowed Eyes by SurvivingNights, literature
Literature
Behind Hollowed Eyes
Behind Hollowed Eyes
Day after day-
I tried continuing on to live this way
With damaged veins made of concrete-
I am the undone suicide that was kept a secret
But I can no longer exist-
Inside of this pretentious skin
There is a past that I wish I didn't remember
There is a future that just looks too painful
There is nothing you can say or do that will help
Because...there is..,no turning back now
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I draw everything away within the undertow
I smother the remnants of your reincarnated hope
I am the lost child you took for granted all those years ago
I am a maelstrom of deceit
I am a darkness that you cannot defeat
I am the awaiting fa
Era Of Silence
Cascading glares swim around my whole body
Searching for some kind of flaw that I might have
But they don't realize that my life is the problem entirely
I can hardly keep on hiding all of the imperfections I secretly grasp
Denial is simple / If you say so
Pretending is impossible / I can't let you know
So I no longer speak for myself
No, not anymore
I feel that I deserve this hell
My pure torture
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I'm just too snared by the knives in my back
No one wanted to accept me for who I really was
That's why I had no choice but to put up this wounded act
But I guess that's what the feeling of losing everybody do